when i was little, i remember we had this office chair. one of those really great spinning ones. except it wasn't great. i remember that i always wanted to spin around and around in it, and everytime i did it, id end up nauseated. but it always still seemed like a good idea to me to start spinning, and i could never quite resist the temptation.

sometimes i think id still sit down for a spin if i had a chair like that.

i hate this part of myself. for gods sake STOP SPINNING.

i would like to be a person who sits quietly in an easy chair instead.

sometimes i am that kind of person for a while.

but now i am not; now i am spinning and its getting to be dizzying and i am trying to grab onto things to make it slow down.